Laughing about it

First of all, that word is so ugly. diabetes...? I hate the sound of it and I hate the nature of it. So far, only kids have been able to lighten that word in their oh-so-innocent ways. Like when my 4 year old niece kept poking me in my side saying "diabetes! diabetes! diabetes!..." over and over. Everyone was looking at me waiting for a reaction. At first I was shocked that someone would say that word in front of me (haha) then I laughed because it was a cute little girl who honestly just thought it was a fun word to say. Also my 7 year old nephew keeps me in check, asking about every food "how much sugar does this have in it?" like he also needed to be aware for his own health. They helped me to laugh at a time nothing was funny.
It's still not funny having diabetes. It's the worst thing ever. There's only a few things I laugh about.

3 things I laugh at:
1. Insurance. As I was writing the check today I contemplated stop paying a stupid insurance company to keep me alive and just let my body die if that's what happens. I'm not depressed or suicidal! I'm just mad at insurance? doctors? government? what is it?
2. Eating healthy but still gaining weight. Substituting broccoli for ice cream DOES NOT WORK. hahah or I guess something is wrong with my body....
3. Myself. For being so weird and negative about it. I promise, I've learned a lot and I AM healthier and stuff. It's just haaaarrrd to deal with it every minute every day.

That's all my venting for today. Sorry for the negativity. It is what it is!

Now to have a GREAT BEAUTIFUL POSITIVE day!!!